I'm joining in with Pause for Advent hosted by Tracing rainbows. This year I am looking at the events of Advent through the eyes of four people who saw them all those 2000 years ago. I have thought about Ann (Jesus's granny, Mary's mum), Joseph and Elizabeth and today Mary is having her two pennorth.
I don’t know whether I’m on my head or my heels but I do know that I am very tired. I’m so tired that I don’t know what to do with myself.
We’ve been on the road for three days now and it will be another four days at least until we reach Bethlehem. We’ve got to go to Bethlehem because the emperor wants to count us. Crazy!
These last nine months have been frightening. I always thought it would be fantastic to be special to God but sometimes I’ve felt as though I was living through a nightmare. It was OK all those months ago when that angel came. In fact it was more than OK, it was brilliant! I suppose I was swept along by the moment but you know, even after everything that’s been happening, I’m still glad I said yes. I was a bit scared but you can’t say no to God, can you? But when the angel had gone reality set in.
The mornings were worst. That’s when I was being sick. At first I didn’t know why but before long I realised that the angel had been no dream. I was expecting a baby.
I’ll never forget the day I told my mum about the baby. It was awful. She wept and she shouted at me and she pleaded with me to name the father but when I named The Father she wouldn’t believe me. She hadn’t seen the angel so why should she? She thought some man had been with me.
Then she told my dad and that was even worse. I think I’ve always been special to him and he was stunned. He couldn’t speak to me or even look at me. He was just so ashamed of me.
Then he had to tell Joseph. I think he hoped that Joseph was the father but no-one knew better than Joe that he wasn’t. My lovely Joe. How could I hurt him so much? He was distraught but he loves me so much that although he wouldn’t marry me he wouldn’t make a song and dance about it.
Then he had his dream and that changed everything. At last someone believed me. I wasn’t alone any longer. Someone else was in on God’s plan.
He went to see my mum and dad again and told them he had changed his mind again and he wanted to marry me and he thought it would be a good idea if we were wed as soon as possible before people started to notice me so that’s what we did. Then we went to see Elizabeth so I could help her while she had her baby. Aunt Lizzie has always been a bit snooty and I knew she wouldn’t pass by on the opportunity to lord it over me. Her baby was a special gift from God too as quite honestly she was past it. Anyway, Joe came with me to hold my hand and help me face the music.
You could have knocked me down with a feather when she came rushing out of the house shouting, “Who am I that the mother of my Lord should come and visit me?”
And that changed me too. When my angel had told me what was going to happen all I could say was, “OK, whatever God wants is fine by me”. But went Aunt Lizzie was like that it suddenly seemed like it would be all right and I started shouting too, "My soul glorifies the Lord and my spirit rejoices in God my Saviour”.
I stayed with Aunt Lizzie for quite a few weeks. We got really close and maybe when my baby is born he’ll be able to spend time with her boy. Joe went home but came and fetched me back and we started our married life together. My mum and dad don’t know what to make of it all but we’re happy, they’re happy. Sort of.
But now we’ve got to go on this journey to Bethlehem and that’s where my baby will be born. I’d hoped I could have been at home with my mum to help me but it will have to be with strangers. Nothing seems to be easy when you are part of God’s plan but maybe he’s got it all worked out.